Maybe that IS what friends are for

I was on my way home from Red Robin with my friend Tionna, and out of nowhere I tell her how ready I am to leave St. George. I tell her everything, about how i feel about living at home with my family, especially with all the stress and tension thrown around, only to apologize minutes later for dumping all that on her. She tells me "that's what friends are for" and i protest (as usual) telling her that i don't like to add to peoples burdens by being so unhappy, because if you know me, and i mean REALLY know me, i'm not that happy. She told me that she was a little sad that i don't talk to her about that kind of stuff any more. That i don't share my burdens with her, i don't want to be that way though, it scares me when so many people know me the way i really am, because i don't like that person. Of course, i didn't really tell her this, cause i'm sure that would scare her. I think i should also protect my friends from myself, that is to say most of them, i'm a crutch, if i break down i don't think many of my closest friends could walk. THAT is what friends are for to me.

-living in different worlds, under the same stars

-lil schu

trouble in not so paradise

Okay so i know i've missed a lot, but the internet at my house doesn't work so well. So let me fill you in on this huge christmas break. Well the first few days were normal, so glad to be out of school, sleeping in and getting ready for Christmas, and then there was christmas which felt like a regular day, just with presents. Then about 4ish is when my family went to las vagas to spend some time with my aunts. i had a first there when we had crab for dinner, and then we did some more present exchanging. the next day was okay, we went to see the sites went through way too many casinos for my liking but overall it wasn't too bad. we finished with the vinetian hotel, which we would have enjoyed so much more if we weren't dead tired from walking around all day. Any way we kept that routine til about 2 on saturday and when we got home we found a letter from our sister who went home for work. Apparently she decided to elope with my first, maniplative, egotistical, jerk of a cousin. she told the people at both of the places she worked, that she would be working full time at her other job. Then she packed up everything she owned and left. And she was married the day we got back from vegas.the next few days were pretty miserable. but new years eve came and i spent that with my best friends sariah and shaylee and sariahs brother ammon at first night. we walked saw the lights did that sort of stuff went to visit some friends who went bowling the we came back for the "kiddie fireworks" and this guy was acting like every bang of the fireworks was a gunshot. it was actually reallly funny at first, then not so much, any way later my friends go to make there hands warmer and the same guy who was being "shot" was there and asked them to be his first kiss! obviously they said no, they didn't even know the guy! so none of us got a new years kiss, o well. but we went back to sariahs house fell asleep on a couple of couches and went to and awsome party with our friends that were bowling the night before. Alright so techniquely im not allowed to be on "social sites" on school computers, so i have to go now! more later!

-living in different worlds, under the same stars

-Sparky